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Wednesday, September 16, 2009

9:07 PM

Everybody has two sides to them, more for some. So which side of your friends and/or family do you actually know? It is not as simple as say, flicking on the switch to a person's other side such that he or she starts acting or behaving differently. We all do behave differently in different situations and environment. It could be due to our human nature which helps us adapt or how we want other people to view us. Sometimes some people might come across as being 'fake' as they dont usually act in that manner or treat someone in that way. However, after much thought I've come to realise that sometimes these people don't even realise it - even when they are truly being metamorphed inside. The reason is that they do not even know that that part of them actually exists or existed within them. It is a sad fact that an increasing number of people today as compared to in the past do not really understand themselves and cannot comprehend who they actually are-deep inside. The reasons for this are many - it could be due to the busy lives that people lead nowadays, the flurry of activities which command every single morsel of our attention such that we do not have the time to look inside ourselves and learn and understand who we actually are and what we've become after all we've experienced in our life.

&the beauty.

10:40 PM

Life can be like sight-reading in music.
Once you've made a mistake you have to learn to let it go and continue playing the melody- or continue living life -or the tune will not be there anymore. We could get all our notes right but not be in sync with the tune, with all the rest of society-our families, friends, and basically living our life itself and enjoying it.
So we have to accept our mistakes made and carry on living our lives such that we're living it in tune with others around us.
Sometimes we dont or cant see the overall picture, or hear the main tune thats playing in our lives as we're too focused on certain specific things,tasks or problem.
Learn to recognise that tune, that melody in your life today and join in the song of life. (:

Carpe diem

&the beauty.

2:08 PM

If looks can be deceiving, why does everyone still place so much importance on looks?
In doing so they are placing their trust in something which is so insubstantial...that can actually betray their trust. It places trust in jeopardy.After all, trust is something special which is getting rarer these days compared to the past.
Or is the nature of trust blind -to all these illusory images?

I can't understand why vain people especially are so overly concerned about their looks. Whether it is to look younger, prettier, skinnier or whatever. No matter what they do even plastic surgery cannot turn back the clock and make them young. Illnesses which are brought about by old age would surface and catch up to them anyhow. They should just accept the fact that looks are a passing thing in their entire lifespan. Looks change. But what's inside doesn't. And what's important is to age gracefully and savour every moment cos it's your life.

I think we should all just learn to see with our hearts into the hearts of others. Then the world would be a much much better place...

&the beauty.

6:22 PM

Some thoughts on a bus journey back today...

Suppose someone asked me to 'grow up', would I do accordingly and 'grow up'? Veering away from my supposedly 'childish' and 'immature' ways? And if I did so, would I be putting up a front? What if being so-called 'childish' or 'immature' is part of my personality-of being ME?

I guess many people conform to these ways, when somebody tells them to do something or to correct their behaviour or change themselves, they do it. Whether because of society's expectations or peer pressure, even their over-consciousness or even obsession of how others think of them. However, in doing so they are locking their "real me" deep inside of them and throwing away the key, being what others expect them to be and wearing a mask all the time. Over time, their "real me" is buried so deep inside of them that it slowly disappears and they cannot find it forever.

From my observations and my opinions formed over time, as I proceed from the 'dark' end of the tunnel of being a teenager into the 'light' and being a young adult, I find out what it means to be an adult really. Basically not being able to truly let your hair down and go crazy like how we did in secondary school, even primary school. People would just label you as immature and childish. As this thought forms in my mind, it makes me dread and rebel at the thought of entering into adulthood and being an adult. I cant imagine my life without all this fun and laughter, without any restrictions, any limitations. If only the hands of the clock could be turned back. In fact, with all these expectations to 'behave your age' and such, I strive even more to be true to myself and my almost stubborn resistance against all these external factors grows stronger day by day. I feel fortunate that I still have and cherish so dearly, days in primary school with not much worries and just simply filled with crazy fun and laughter as nobody expected you to be all mature and serious and stuff.

And I just cannot understand how people cannot have the courage to be themselves.
I know it's a long and ardous journey, with constant bombardment of deterrences. Pressures from everywhere to conform to what they want. In their interests and not in your best interests. But still. I have learnt when I was younger that no matter what people think we have to be true to ourselves. If no one in this world is completely being true to us, and if we ourselves are not true to ourselves, then there would be no truth in our lives at all and we would be leading a life which is not ours really-a LIE.

&the beauty.

3:07 AM

Nobody can stop you from dreaming what you want to dream.

Don't follow your dreams. Chase them.

&the beauty.

2:30 AM

Why do we do the things which we don't understand sometimes? The actions we carry out which don't make sense when compared to others.
Till now I still don't understand why.

Then again, there are people who look and behave as you expect them to-nothing out of the ordinary-but you then realise there is another side to them.And because you were caught unawares, you don't know how to react. Not wanting to turn any relations bad, I put up with it. All along feeling uncomfortable with it, that this is just wrong. How can one person behave so differently? It's so difficult to accept the reality even.
No respect,delusional. Anger and frustration takes over.
Is there a proper way in which I should react? Can anybody tell me how?
It's all too weird for me.
When will it come to light and finally end...for good?

I can't go on deceiving myself and others around me.

&the beauty.

3:52 PM

&the beauty.